What's That Feeling Again?

Friday night and as usual, it's going to be a lonely one.

Wait. No.

Not this week. It was one of the best Friday night i've ever had in weeks.

I was tired after the day. My eyes were half closed at 10pm. I was suppose to meet her at 1030pm. How am i going to get through the night without being a bore?

I was still tired when we meet. Then we went to a neat place to have a drink. We had wine.

Well, saying we had wine is a bit over rated. I had a bottle, barely. And she finished 3. This is really embarrassing. I was out-drank by a gal. Damn it.

But the night was nice, sweet.

As always, we chatted about everything. I'm glad i made her laughed. That's something i can do with people around me. That's just something i can do. Don't you think?

And the question come. What's that feeling again? i don't remember how it quite felt like, the feeling of liking someone. Guess i've been numb after all these years.

i'm moving on. i think.

Sure felt real, being so fond of someone, so connected. It just felt good.

Just need more time.





ChiM

Deranged?

Like every other Sunday morning, it would be breakfast with my parents. We would drive around town looking for eating places, and then sit there for about an hour or so before finishing our meal & head on home.

Just like every other Sunday morning, today was nothing much special about breakfast.

As we were eating the food, talking & chatting, amidst the enjoyment, the corner of my eye caught a glimpse of a pitiful sight.

There was a man. He was dressed in a worn-out yellow collar shirt, slightly torn at the right shoulder. His shorts was black, not the original color i suspect but from the dirt that stained it. His sleepers were mixed, a side different than the other.

He was holding a few coins in his hands, asking the yau-cha-guai seller the price of each of the delicacies that he is selling. Although this man is a customer, the hawker did not treat the man as one. He was rather generous in his harsh & rudeness.

The man wasn't choosing which one was nicer. He was choosing which one he can afford.

I felt really bad at that time. I looked around, little kids having their moms to beg them to finish their food, adults with unfinished food left on the table. Everyone was enjoying the food, and no one seemed to notice this man.

I really felt bad. I was surmounted by the feeling of sympathy but at the same time, fear.

The first thought that went through my mind when i saw him was, what had he done, or didn't do, that caused him such life of misery?

Who knows he might be one of the CEOs in a famous multi million earning MNC, or used to be, but went bankrupt because of one silly mistake in investment?

Or maybe, he's just someone who didn't bother to study when he was young, play truant everyday, got involved with underground gangs, and when he finally got older, got left out of the wild life, he now can't even afford a proper meal?

How do you know which decision you make will lead you to a better life in the future?

It really is quite disturbing for me. I didn't know what to think!

One wrong step you take today might caused you everything you can't afford to lose tomorrow. So how do you know what you do today is the right thing to do?

Deranged~!!





ChiM

I've got a New Office

For the past 2 weeks, it was a hectic time with the team as we need to rush in moving our new office before the sales conference was being held. It was hectic because we need to arrange for everything to be moved up from ground floor to 4th floor. Apart from that, we'll need to arrange all our equipments & everything else in the whole office & lab to make everything look really presentable.

And we still need to meet our time line for our projects.

And not all of us will be able to be here. For instance, this past week, JG was up in Penang for training. The Friday before this week, Harvin was on leave for the Vasakhi festival.

Basically, there was only 2 of us most of the time in doing all the stuffs. Either me+JG or me+Harvin.

But of course, if everyone would lend a hand, take some initiative to help out for the team, everything would be quicker and easier. Don't you agree?

And if you are a part of the team, there wouldn't be any reason for you to not help out during this event in the history of the team, right?

Wrong~!!

There are some of us who are only here for training, therefore they are special and therefore need not help in all this.

And even if you ask them for help, they would be so busy doing something that they will only appear to help out once you've got all the things done all by yourself.

Fine. Different culture, i'll take that.

Back to new office. It's of course, an office all by ourselves, with test lab attached together. This means we don't need to walk to & fro from the production floor back to the office for a sip of water and then walk back to the production again to get into the test lab.

More time saved.

Drawback, it's on 4th floor. We can only climb up with flight of stairs, unless you are carrying cargo or certified unfit to take the stairs, you can take the cargo lift.

But still, the new test office & lab is cool. Definitely a place of our own now.

Don't think i can share out the testers & the simulators we're using. It's company confidential you know. But i do feel like sharing a picture.

So i'll share this.



In the old office, the only view we have is just into the production floor. Now, we have a nice scenery of mountains and skies. Wonderful.




ChiM

Different Culture Maybe?

See, i've got 3 chinese engineer colleagues from China. We've got communication problem. The reason so is because they don't speak proper English & i don't speak proper Mandarin. But language barrier is never too great an obstacle that i couldn't overcome.

See, i've got 3 chinese engineer colleagues from China. We've got communication problem. The reason so is because they have different working attitude than us. They have this mindset that they should be treated specially because they are here from overseas. But attitude barrier is never too great an obstacle to overcome as we don't work together on the same project.

See, i've got 3 chinese engineer colleagues from China. We've got communication problem.The reason so is because we think they are just lazy. i know it because we've openly discussed this among ourselves and we've concluded that at least one of them is lazy, another one is stubborn & the last one not too bright.

Well at least the not-too-bright one is still willing to lend a hand when us locals move our butts around trying to get things done.

And at least the stubborn one is smart enough to listen & think about something after we explained to him how things work around here.

It's just this one guy, who is obviously lazy, not too bright & damn stubborn, all 3-in-1 packaged into the same person. When you ask him to do something, you have to ask him 3 times before he will move his heavy butt off the chair & do the thing you asked. Furthermore, he will give a long lecture about why this thing that he is doing should be done in another way. When he finally get to do what he was suppose to do, he will take 3 times the period you yourself will need to get it done and get back to the office to report to you.

Arrghh......~!!

Are all Chinese people really like this? If so then i am seriously ashamed of myself as a Chinese heritage.

Of course i hope not all of them are like that. Sometimes, there will be one so special that makes the rest of the few billions of people looks bad.

Just like a band. If one person sounds bad, the whole band sounds bad.

I just hope we can get along well now since we're all inside the same office now, and will be so until they go back China, or i'm leaving the company.

And oh, my Indian colleague from India is coming in next month. Talk about multi-national company.


Wish me luck.



ChiM

Am i Ready?

How long does it normally takes for a person to get over past relationship & move on to the next one?

Or even more specific, what is the appropriate time frame to get involve into another relationship after you broke up with your previous special someone.

A month? A year?

It always impress me a lot when friends can come to you weeping their heart out, telling you between their sobs & sighs how hurt their hearts are and stuffs. Then like a week or so later, you see them holding hands with someone else already.

And of course, when i try to talk this issue with them, all i got was avoidance. Most probably because i'm a loudmouth? But even those who will talk about it, all i got was "When it comes, you will know. You just can't help it."

Yea, rite~!!

Of course, i've got friends who just hang on to their previous relationship for ages, not willing to let go, even after their previous someone had already got steady with another person. i mean the time frame is just ridiculously long for these cases.

Now, again. How long does it normally takes for a person to get over past relationship & move on to the next one?

Easy question, not easy to answer. This is those kind of question you see in your final exams, with really simple question but you will need to answer in details, and correctly as it will cost you half the total scores of that paper if you got it wrong.

Maybe i'm just too dumb to "just know" it. Any solution to this? A guide perhaps?

And oh, say me gay if you will but i kind of find Justin Timberlake damn cool, especially when he dance lor. Wait a little while for the vid to load and see him dance ok?







ChiM

Light Bulb

It's weekend once again, and this weekend i'm damn free, considering for the past few weeks there were activities during the 2 days of total boringness.

Just another complain post. Not exactly a complain per say but more to voicing up my dissatisfaction.

Anyway, i was suppose to go with a few of my colleagues to the night market yesterday after work, as a socializing event. The person who suggest to this activity was none other than the person who always decide where we should go for lunch everyday, which is also the person with a very special name.

I'm not going to disclose her name here, in fear that someone knows her might be reading this, or she might be reading this herself.

Back to the story. At almost six fifteen, the time other people usually got off from work, the time i'm still working an counting down another 2 more hours before going home, she gave me a call.

Well, she didn't exactly stood me up on this one. She just told me her boyfriend will be joining us, which was not in the initial plan. Almost well known to the whole universe out there, i'm not in good terms with the boyfren, the first reaction would be "Like that ar......then you guys have fun lar...." or "I don't want to be light-bulb lar....."

Kind of felt a tinge of disappointment, really. Is it really appropriate to stood friends off when your special someone call for you during the last minute of the activity you organize?

Is it ok or am i just being ridiculous?

I don't really want to be this negative but this is seriously really disappointing. At least for myself, i will have a better arrangement than this.

And i seriously don't enjoy being light-bulb. It sucks. Makes me feel damn emo of my own love life.


O.O ~~ emo


ChiM

Dedication to Lovely Laney

First i must apologize to you and some other of my friends, and i do beg for your forgiveness before i continue on the story.

Reason for seeking apology is, i was down in KL last weekend, i didn't get to meet up with everyone. Actually i went down to KL for the training and career fair, in hope of looking how much am i worth in the market, what other opportunities i have to do my postgraduate program, and also survey what's hot in the industry and what's not.

Obviously it wasn't anything worth praising with a great round of applause, though i'm sure a lot of people attended the fair found good use of it.

But anyway, this post is not about the fair. It's about my good friend Lane. She was previously known as Bumbz, and Bumblebee, and Laney, and Lanez, and so many other names but now i'm just going to call her Lane.

I went down KL, tumpang her place for the night, and like always, she's like the nicest person in the whole wide world. We hang out and do some stupid stuffs, just like old times.

Then on our way home, outside The Curve, just as we turned out the junction from the parking area, fireworks starts shooting into the air. The whole sky was lit with shades of different colors, and artistic shapes of light.

I didn't have anything on me except my phone to capture the moment. Of course, it wasn't the nicest pictures of fireworks i've taken, and it's definitely not the nicest picture i've seen as well. But what matter most is, i've captured the moment into digital photography.

And so, i relive this sweet, short moment of friendship to my good friend, Lane.








Friendship may not be forever, but it looks good to me till this moment now.




ChiM

Back-ed?

Let's make this real quick, not because i don't feel like blogging, or i don't want to blog anymore, but i don't know when will the line just trip & i go disconnect for the next couple of weeks AGAIN.

Yes, i have to emphasize AGAIN in bold and capital because i was basically off-line for the past few weeks, everyday battling with the customer service dudes & dudettes whether have they solve this problem for me or not.

It was really frustrating, as everytime i call them, i will have to re-tell the whole story again from square one. What's even more frustrating is it's the same complain report! The problem is already in the report, can't people read?

And after a series of misfortunes, and some butt-licking with the TM technicians, finally they show up at my house to try and fix it, only after 3 weeks the complain have been made.

Fine. Still cannot fix, and it's now a problem with the wiring of my house phone line, which apparently can be fixed by adding a filter at every phone port to block off interference to/from phone lines.

Still i'm disconnecting like every 5 minutes. And i only get to go online at late night. Mind you but i still need to crawl out the bed early morning to get myself ready for work.

This is why i was off-line for the past few weeks. Missed me?



ChiM