Bored on a Saturday Afternoon

It's a Saturday afternoon, and i'm sitting in front of my pc at home.

Guess what, and i'm glad and i kind of enjoy it. It's been a very tiring week for me. As a matter of fact, i've been rather tired for some weeks now.

Of course it's from work. What else were you thinking? But of course, there are other reasons for being so tired but im not telling what. So i'll give you guys a chance to let your imagination run wild.

I deserve some proper rest of lazing around at home, chatting with some friends on some hot news from me lately, writing my blog, watching transformer on pirated DVD for the nth times.



What a life......?




I know my friends care about me when they purposely call me up to ask me about my life now, my status now. And i could not ask for more from a friend than this. And today, this very afternoon right before i'm writing this, i got 2 of my friends contacted me.

Well, actually they are just very busy body want to ask about someone only but still i'm very glad they asked. It's always happy to know your friends whom you care about do care for you in return. And what more can you ask from a friend than this?


So i'm going to sign off now being very happy with myself having people around me that actually appreciate me. Do you know the feeling of being appreciated? i've only know it lately.....


Quote MsSourGrape, "I've been kind of naughty lately!"






ChiM

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Nothing much about myself lately. It's only been work & life the whole of this month.

Something new about me? Yes and No.

Yes for moving onto another phase in my life. I'm an adult now, full of responsibilities and thoughts on how to improve my career and financial status.

No for i'm still the same old me.

Drop me a message from time to time. i check my friendster account daily.







ChiM

Well.....

Apparently, someone's been reading my blog. Good news and bad news.

The good news is of course someone out there actually cares of what's happening to an old friend here in Ipoh. It's always good when some Uni friends thought of you out of the blue and decided to check on you. I'm more of the type to take initiatives to make things happen sometimes when i think it's worth to keep in touch. Although sometimes i don't. So i usually ring my friends up, or leave them a message in friendster if i can't see them on MSN.

The bad news is, i can't simple write stuffs that i feel. Most of the time, i have mixed emotions and always have the urge to spit it all out. And this usually gets me into trouble. I would appreciate if you don't ask what kind of trouble i got myself into. Sometimes they are huge but sometimes it's just a slap to my head. But still don't ask.

I've always thought, no news is good news. I've always been someone low profiled, though for the recent few years i've been loud and famous for being really chirpy & happy all the time.

Hey, i'm just being optimistic about things that's happening to myself. No point sulk over things you can't change, right?

It's always been this way for me; it's either to deal with it happily, with an open mind, or just don't deal with it. And i've never been someone who runs away from responsibility. This kind of explains how i'm constantly laughing away.

And no, i'm not crazy and i was not discharged from Hospital Bahagia before i go MMU.








Feel so grown up, heavy loads of responsibilities to take care of, heavy loads of considerations to think about, heavy loads of debts to clear off.

Still trapped in the rat race at the age of 24.


I wish an invisible guiding hand can reach out to me and support me in all ways i needed.





ChiM

What if......?

I thought i didn't want to blog anymore. I thought i could just let it go. Maybe i can't write as often as before anymore but i still like blogging. Especially when i know no one is reading my blog. Then i can write anything i'm feeling without worrying i might hurt anyone.

I can't remember how i started off. I think i was bored, and i was being really emo that time. Wanted someone to talked to but then again no one was there.

Not really no one was there, but just the person i wanted to share thoughts with wasn't there at that time.....

.....i think.

Well, i was having a lot of thoughts lately. i know myself as being one of the open minded ones among a lot of my friends. i know for sure about that.

Then again, lately this thoughts have been challenged by a number of facts that i thought would never happen to me.

Not going to tell what though. Hehe....

But then, these events made me question myself a lot lately on how open minded i can be?












A lot of thinking about my personal past recently. One thing for sure, i am how i am today because of how i was yesterday, and the decission i made today will change how i will be tomorrow.

i think i'm speaking gibberish again.

i'm glad there was a lot of sweet & sour moments when i looked back. In fact, there were bitter & spicy as well. Let's just put it that life is like a kitchen. You can either make good food from there, or you can just cook instant noodle.

Yea, i know. Bad example.

Haha.....

At least i'm happy now.












ChiM

Hurt

i'm sorry i hurt you again and again.











i've got a new life now.
A new relationship with someone.












It's really happy to be me now.
I'm finally myself again.
Appreciated for being who i am.












The happier i am, the more guilt accumulate inside my heart.
Guilt for hurting you so much.












Wish you could hate me for what i did.
That would make me feel better.











i'm sorry i hurt you over & over again.
i'm sorry.












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